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  • A Godly Reminder, and a Definition

    Screw That Guy Encouraging
    Abusing EA’s Family

    With the news that E.A. Koetting was busted on drug and gun charges, the occult community reacted with a weird mix of support from his fans and contemptuous self-righteous snerkery from his detractors. I was disgusted by the folks posting links to his girlfriend’s father’s facebook page, and especially the guy that posted the contact information of his daughter suggesting people write her about what a shame it is that her dad is a meth-head.

    Screw that guy.

    Aaron Leitch has posted a mixed response, calling out Koetting on some of the things he’s done and how he’s done them. I have been blissfully unaware of some of the more outrageous stuff he’s done to make a name and a few dollars. I understand better where some of the “he brought it on himself” stuff is coming from.

    The first I really started hearing about Koetting’s writings was when I started expressing that the point of the Hermetic Great Work is to make you a living god. I thought that was awesome, and accurate, and totally in keeping with Iamblichus, Plotinus, and a lot of the Greek Magical Papyri and the art of Goetia. I thought it was just perfect, and then people started comparing me to Koetting. Because he already used the term, and made similar claims, but he was “a complete and total toolbox” about it, to quote a friend.

    I don’t know what he thought or taught the phrase “becoming a living God” meant, or how he feels about it today, but I’m pretty sure I meant something else. In the Corpus Hermeticum, it’s taught that we are already the image of God, and that when we incarnated we forgot our divine nature. Through Hermetic pursuits, we remember who we are, where we came from, and what we incarnated for in the first place (hint: it’s to have fun). That’s what the Great Work is all about, remembering that you are, in fact, a living god.

    Since Koetting’s arrest, I’ve seen a few smug posts mocking his deity claims, or something to similar effect. “Not much of a god if he got caught, eh? Not much of a powerful magician if he can’t avoid a simple traffic stop, eh?*”

    Even Aaron’s post is titled, “The Fall of a Living God,” which is artful, entertaining, and a very good selection of a title for a blog post… But I would like to suggest that it is premature,** and perhaps inaccurate as well.

    First off, the presupposition is that Gods are all-powerful and never have a shitty day with the law. That’s some really seriously terribly wrong information, brothers and sisters. What makes you think gods don’t have to put up with any bullshit ever? Let me share a gentle reminder about being gods:

    • Jesus Christ had a pretty shitty Friday afternoon that you might have forgotten about when he was 33 (incidently, the same age as Koetting).
    • Remember Osiris? He, ahem, did not have a great time of things. Even after his sister-wife got him all stitched up, he still ended up with an eternal strap-on.
    • Inanna spent a lot more time hanging up as a sack of skin on a wall than Koetting spent in jail.
    • Loki’s immortal-snake-venom-dripping-on-him-while-he’s-tied-in-his-son’s-guts-torment is not an ongoing rave with flashing lights and limitless hookers and blow until Ragnarok comes.
    • Prometheus*** getting his liver et daily for all eternity ain’t all that grand either.

    Dionysus, Hephaestus, arguably Hera, these gods are not having it great all the time either. They go to prison, they have unhealed limps, they are cheated on and degraded by their husbands, they are kicked out of cities. They travel grave paths, and suffer unspeakable things.

    Who can look at the gods and think you’re actually going to have it perfect all the time, that you are immune to machinations and manipulations, that the temporal authorities of the Earth are not going to be able to give you a bad day?

    But a fallen god, as the stories show, is pretty hard to keep down.

    Maybe Koetting talked a lot of shit before this, and I can relate. There was a time when I talked a lot of shit until things went sour and my magic worked all too well. I honestly expect him to bounce back and turn this to his advantage. It would be neat if he were to take another approach to magic that leads him to the same expression of “Deus est Homo” that he made prior to this, but with more meaning and understanding, a little less hubris and a little more pride. I might even have a suggestion or two from my own experiences that he might find useful, if he’s interested (cough cough cough SEVEN SPHERES cough cough cough).

    But maybe he won’t bounce back. Maybe this is it for him, Maybe he’s going to burn out and be a loser, and we’ll never hear from him again.

    Whatever, he can do what he wants, just like any other god can. I ain’t gonna judge. I’m going to carry on being god-emperor of my own world, king of my kingdom, experiencing my experiences in style and joy, and I’m going to create and maintain it as I see fit. I’ll work with him in the future if it’s profitable to us both, or I won’t if it’s not interesting.

    I’ll go my way, and he will, I swear to all of you right now, go his, and what he does is his will, his joy, and also his problem, just like any other god.

    Because the thing is, he is a god. Not because of any of the magic he did, but because we all are, intrinsically, and we just forgot. That’s what Hermetics says, guys. Gods and humans are cousins, and the power of the Gods is not bestowed upon us by magic, it is simply revealed, remembered, and understood through the magic we do. Some approaches may be more effective than others, but the conclusion he reached that I heard, “Magic teaches you to become a living god” is still accurate, and not in the slightest disproven because he had a run in with Johnny Law.

    Every one of us has the “divine” potential to change the world, if we want to badly enough, if we’re willing to do what it takes, and we don’t necessarily need anything supernatural to make it happen. Martin Luther King, Ghandi, Aleister Crowley, Jesus Christ, they all had terrible farts at some point in their lives, and they all had some shitty days in court over bullshit.

    Human, god, whatever you want to call yourself in your time on Earth, you can do what you want, and deal with what happens as a result. Magic doesn’t make you immune to stress, bullets, the police, snitches, or anything else that entities have to deal with in the manifest world, whether they are gods or humans. It can help you influence things, but it doesn’t give you control over anything but yourself, the only thing that can change anything in your life.

    So yeah, while I’m not surprised that a black magic occult rock star is doing drugs (the shock, the horror!) or that a “living god” is still subject to the laws and influences of the worldly powers, I don’t think we’ve seen the “Fall” of anyone this week. Just some life happening.

    We’ll see how long it takes before he shuffles out of the tomb.

    * By the way, he was pulled over and arrested by the Washington County Drug Task force as a result of a tip they got a week before. It wasn’t some routine traffic stop, they were after his ass.

    ** Premature because there’s no such thing as bad press. I have thought of a few different ways he can turn this event into a gold mine. If he’s really just after cash, I hope he sees the value of the reverse Sam Kinnison, also known as the Mike Warnke schtick. He’s set himself up to actually be the Satanic black magic magician Mike Warnke claimed to be, and if he concocts a convincing “Come to Jesus” moment in jail, he will have a lifetime of free money touring pentecostal gatherings, talking about how he was living in sin with a woman, addicted to drugs, worshipping satan and having the gall to call himself a living God, until that moment when the REAL living God struck him down in his pride, but had mercy and grace to save a sinner, halleluiah! and shit.

    But he can also get off using magic, and court cases aren’t that hard to influence. He can totally turn this around to his advantage Charlie Sheen style, even if he goes to prison. Tiger’s blood will out.

    *** Thanks to +Craig ‘VI’ Slee for the correction to my shitty memory.

  • SEVEN SPHERES PUBLISHED!

    So for Real

    Guys! Hey guys! Holy shit, I’m totally published for real! And it’s Seven Spheres, and it’s going to be available at Nephilim Press in a couple of days  AVAILABLE NOW and I’m like shitting myself with excitement!

    Alright, not just because it’s about me getting published, although, fuck yeah, that rocks. It’s about fucking time, amiright?

    But here’s the thing, guys, I don’t want you to buy it unless you’re actually going to use it. The book is a much-expanded version of the Seven Gates rites I put together, and it takes you through each planetary sphere, and draws down a specific power. As these powers integrate and manifest in your life, things just sort of change.

    This is the practice manual for Hermetic Planetary Magic. It invokes a specific current that turns you into the King of your world. It gets you out of bad relationships and into good ones. It gets you out of bad jobs and into good ones. It gets you out of bad lives and on the path toward creating something better for yourself, using the powers and skills that are yours by birthright because you’re an amazing magician.

    There are limited numbers though, and I want them to go to people who will do the magic. I hope everyone who buys the book will also sign up for the accompanying class, but that’s not entirely necessary. The book is $50, and the class is going to be $75, so a total of $125. You’ll have to buy them separately though.

    You can buy the book without buying the class, but you can’t buy the class without buying the book, so if you’re going to take the class, buy the book now.

    Buy the book AT THIS LINK from Nephilim Press. I’ll put up a link to the course later this week.

    I’m not going to just make bold ass claims about how awesome my magical practice is in people’s lives though, that’s bullshit. I’ve got something better, the actual experience of folks who’ve done this already.

    A group of us did these rites a couple years ago, when I thought getting published would be a matter of a few weeks, tops, in preparation for the launch. We went through and did a ton of high intensity magic in a very short period of time. You can see the kinds of transforamtion it had in people’s lives, and also, note that it’s not perfect perfection and everything they ever wanted all at once. Like all real magical transformations, it takes time to integrate and release the forces we’re dealing with.

    Some of the reports are from people who participate in my Red Work series of courses. That’s great, it gives a stronger understanding of the forces and stuff we work with, but it’s not necessary. I’d rather you jumped into this and joined the upcoming Seven Spheres course.

    But anyway, on with the testimonies! We went through the Seven Spheres, and here’s some of what happened over the next year in people’s lives:

    I got married, moved into a bigger apartment with lower rent, replaced my old car, and my bosses are trying to get me a two level promotion with a nice raise. Oh, that all happened in the last 7 days. My life is definitely exploding, but in good ways. This week is the first week calm enough that I can get my 5 week planetary cycle going. – T. R.

    (Note, he’s now in the UK pursuing the dream life.)

    I’ve been able to institute some major changes in what I teach at school, how I teach, and how students learn: a lot more constructivism (i.e., getting kids to learn for themselves, more akin to learning alchemy than sitting in a lecture), training colleagues at my school and other schools. My life has been thrown into a tizzy by all of this. Great love, great power. My tai chi practice has taken off, too. I have a working studio as an artist-designer in the front room of my house, and a working studio at school that I share with 175 kids and another 40 adults. And thanks to the spirits of your grimoire, I know how to make use of these spaces, and an increasing number of my colleagues are learning. Solar power — drawing others into the orbits of self transformation!

    All happy? No. I’m one creator-god among a small group of 200-odd creator-gods, and I’m pushing rope uphill against a lot of things — a sedentary egregore, a culture of “do the minimum”, a high-stress working environment for kids and adults, a bad education market, and…

    No matter. The spirits are clear that none of this can be fixed overnight; and some of it can’t BE fixed. Sometimes what magicians have to do is keep hammering on doors that must be opened, even if we’re not the ones who are going to open them. – Andrew Watt



    I was very active in the last month, so I dont know how much of it happened because of the planetary spheres, But anyway here it is: had some crazy love, got a new interesting job & 2 months of non-stop initiations in my chosen spiritual path in india………. – Spiros Sonnu

    It most certainly made a difference in my life. I did magic instead of just reading about it. I was ecstatic to be wrapped in the power to bring happiness to myself and others. At the same time, I was trying to hold up some things that I should have let go of. Being honest to yourself and understanding what will make you happy/fulfilled is hard. – Mr. L

    There´s a lot of things. I improved my ritual skills, I moved to a bigger house with a room exclusive for magic, solved some mother problems to sell an apartment then I received some money too and payd some old bills. A new computer at least, but still no internet connection. Appears my writings are receiving more visibility.By other side, Mr Grim helped too: My girlfriend become into depression and have gone. Two persons who attack me right now are responding in various criminal justice.(Thanks Michael!) They tried to kill me. So I had to move house fast because I become chased by the gang from that two ones.That is, only to remember that the energies bring results, but sometimes something has to change dramatically. – Gilberto Strapazon

    Immediate results: I noticed significant changes in my behaviors and personality. I became much more social. I started thinking a lot more about where my life was, where I want it go, and what I need to make that happen. For the first time in my life I’m pushing for a raise, which I am getting (just how much will be determined this week). The main thing that got me thinking about this was the fact that I’ve been dealing with depression for over 20 years, and I realized that I haven’t had a significant low since this group was started and I performed 2 cycles of rituals. That meant more to me than all the other factors, though I’m quite happy with all changes I’ve noticed. – Seraph Bonobo

    Honestly, it’s been mixed. I feel like a lot of stuff is still boiling off of my sphere and it’s all still in process. I’ve been regularly conjuring Raphael, Hermes, and Tzadkiel every week, and occasional the other planets. Lot of internal shifts and some good advice. But mundanely, I can’t say things have gotten better or worse. Then again, most of the time I just ask FOR advice and blessings, not direct intervention. I still feel very weird about calling up the angels, etc, and demanding things. – H.C.

    I did it, and had very positive results (but please note the distinction between ‘positive’ and ‘pleasant’). From a macro perspective, I basically positioned myself to have a good career; I was in a bad place professionally, gone to seed, though I didn’t realize it at the time. The catalyst was a relationship that started soon after, with a woman much better established than I was; I had the sense that an ordeal was coming and I think it was kind of an ordeal for both of us, and while we’re still sorting that out, there’s no question that huge internal changes happened, and I’m better off now than before. – J. M.

    I’m a Red Work course member. Finished the black work, currently re-doing the white work, and I do 7 spheres gate rituals on and off. I haven’t really given much feedback to you RO, but I’d like to think I’ve been successful with it. I’m in a MUCH better place than I was a year ago. Twice the income, arguably twice the happiness. Home life going well. Honestly, life is good. *Really* good. – R. D.

    I came into this with severe doubts about where I was headed both magickally and professionally. As I stand now, I have no doubt about the path that I’m on. I’ve found what works, and I’m going in the right directions, and it’s all just going to get better from now (not without bumps!) I have a lover who I adore and who makes me feel like a Queen – it’s not a relationship that I think is destined to last for the long-term, but in the short term I am blissfully happy, -and- it’s a relationship that teaches me a great many specific lessons I have needed to learn. I have grown in my relationships with the spirits. I am working toward meeting and knowing my HGA (of whatever title). I resolved my career uncertainties and took the path that was right for me instead of the one I felt pressured to take. (Now I just have to work on ensuring that the NIH sequestration doesn’t mess that up..) There are probably things I’ve forgotten to list here, because I sprained my ankle on the way in to work and am in way more pain than promotes good cognition. Hey, they can’t all be banner days, right? – Sierra Adams

  • Planetary Gates of the Seven Spheres

    I’ve recently received a number of requests for the Planetary Gates series of rites I put together a couple years ago. People are wondering where they are at, and why they can’t buy the ebooks anymore.

    Well, there’s a reason they aren’t for sale any more. They are being released, in a much-expanded fromat as a published book by Nephilim press.

    In a week or two. Bwahahahaha!

    Yes, that’s right, I  went full bore on this and turned it into an actual book. It takes you through each of the spheres in a series of rituals that result in the release of a current that transforms everything in your life, like magic.

    And it’s great on its own. Many people will buy it and enjoy it, and experience some neat stuff as a result.

    But like many things in the occult, this book exists as the same thing, but on multiple levels. While the book itself is sufficient to tap into the current, it will also serve as the textbook to the series of courses that will be replacing the Green Work courses I used to offer. I will be putting together an introductory presentation that recaps the Black Work course, training people in the fundamentals of the system of magic that I use (to great success). After that will be a presentation that covers the basic intentions of the class. Then there will be seven consecutive presentations, one for each sphere. Then there will be a conclusion, that covers the practical application of the cycle of rites that are covered in each of the previous presentations.

    It’s going to be pretty fucking intense.

    The point is to empower you to be the king and queen of your world. You are the center of your existence, and it is through your decisions and actions that you influence the experience of your manifest lfie. From money, to sex, to happiness, to fulfillment, all of your life expereinces are the result of decisions you make based on your awareness of what’s going on at the time.

    The Seven Spheres book and course will take you through each of the planetary spheres and expose you to the intelligences of each sphere. You will receive the blessings and teachings of these spirits, and you will understand how those spirits and forces manifest through you in an intimate way to create or influence every expereince you have in your entire life. You will have the opportunity to integrate and project these forces as you see fit, expanding your potential by expanding your understanding.

    The goal of this Work* is to create a world with more royals working together to express their fiat as they see fit. All are not called, all are not chosen to receive this Word, or to perform the Work of being themselves fully. And that’s alright. I’m not going to change the world for everyone, I’m just here to help some folks understand a bit more about what they could be doing with their lives, if they tried.

    But things are still in development. The page isn’t ready at Nephilim to start taking orders, and I haven’t finished the courses. It’s coming though, and apparently I’ve got to get my ass in gear. I’ve got some magic to help with that.

    Oh, and look for me and Harper in a city near you. We’re putting together some presentations to present the system at a high level, and the message of my book at a specific level in as many places as we can reach over the next little while. We’ve got something booked already in March for Kentucky, at a place called Seven Spheres Oasis, of course.

    More stuff to come as things develop.

    * and you better believe the publication of every book I publish is a magical act

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    With Jason Miller and Aaron Leitch and others who wrote some stuff about offerings. In Magic. 🙂

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  • Ghosts in the Machines

    Come One, come ALL, step right up! Shake off those eternal doldrums of perfect non-being. It’s been way too long! Manifest “Now!”

    Take advantage of one of our most popular destinations, and visit the roaring Earth! Blissfully incarnate and experience the most exquisite aspects of being! 
    Not only do you get sadness and joy, you also get angst, suffering, and orgasm*! Experience the unique grating inevitabilty of discomfort and duress, interspersed with indeterminate moments of absolute bliss that can only be experienced on Earth!
    The infinitely unlikely, highly advanced Manifestation Enhancement and Tactical Symbiotic biotechnic interfaces has taken over four billion years to create, and it continues to be enhanced with every generation. While some defects have been statistically noted in the process, all aspects of divinity have unanimously expressed nothing but gratitude for their experiences in even the least efficient interface available to consciousness.
    The current version comes with a standard set of senses, each delivering a million variated combinations of experiences across the chemical and physical spectrum of possible states. Smells and colors, tastes and sounds await you! 
    The environment itself is custom-designed to be a wonder of experiences available in Normal mode, but wait until you unlock the Intermediate and Advanced perception levels! Multiple in-experience chemical prizes are readily available in natural and synthetic forms, allowing you to temporarily experience the advanced settings. Also available are the the longer-term spiritual approaches to similar states of mind.
    In the current era, we an even offer a path that incorporates both the spiritual and chemical methods of altered awareness that have become popular among a certain genre of incarnationists.
    Take advantage now, and you can participate in:

    • The Obamic Golden Age
    • Legalization of Marijuana
    • The Plague and Zombie Apocalypse
    • 13th Century Illuminated Islamic Revival (encore performance, hurry before the last Mujahideen is born!)
    • Magic, Miracles, and Mayhem
    • The ever-popular Hidden Oligarchic Hegemony Society (all the Machiavellian intrigue you could ask for, in any role imaginable!)
    • Also … pretty much any other human-era role imaginable continues to be available across every probability in the continuum**
    Reap the rewards of Privilege, or suffer the injustices of inequality, as you see fit! Delight in family, loneliness, true love and heart break! Experience the luxuries of poverty, and the depravities of wealth! Do what thou Will! See the suffering and the joy in all things, and bring that experience back with You when you Return!
    Come One!
    Come ALL!***

    * “Orgasm” feature is currently available in all incarnate genders
    ** As Originally Intended, see Terms and Conditions section 230542, subsection 93 93/93, Xallixti

    *** There’s literally nothing else to do!****
    **** Forever!
  • On Death and Suffering, but mostly Death, from an Illuminated Hermetic Perspective, because it’s that time again.

    Already Dead Anyway

    Ah, autumn! Tis the Season to be jolly, fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la

    DEATH.

    It’s a fucking blessing, goddamn it. It’s a sign that you did your time, finished what you meant to, and you’re moving on. It’s a right, a privilege, and an honor. The folks left behind have some issues to deal with, sure, but my death is mine, and I’ll take it when and where I will, even if I haven’t let myself in on that fact just yet.

    That’s the conclusion I’ve reached (at this point) regarding death, and that’s after having created the philosopher’s stone, accomplishing the great work, and attaining Illumination through the Hermetic practices of Western esoteric magics.

    Your mileage may vary.

    My friends are reaching the age when their parents die. Mine are old, and getting older. I send them money each month now to pay their mortgage, and their cell phone bill. They are on my MicroSoft Office plan, so they get Office for my $10 a month. And they are Christians.

    I visited my Grandmother this summer, with my kids. They are 12 and 13 at the moment, and they never met her before. My grandmother’s house hasn’t changes since I was 12.

    She’s 92.

    They could go any time. Any fucking time. Intimate parts of my life that affect me on a weekly and daily basis, just gone. Leaving me empty and desolate. Leaving me wondering about whether I lived enough with them the way I’d wanted to while they were alive. It’s that time in my life where I have to think about that.

    But then again, they could live another 20 fucking years. Or more. Who knows? How much of my life should I spend on them, knowing they could go any time, or they might be here after I’m gone?

    So: family, and loved ones, and death, and shit. How does it matter, what’s the impact on our lives?

    The best person I ever saw deal with death was +Christopher Bradford. If I ever go through anything similar, I expect to do as well, and if I don’t, I’m an asshole. See, he’s a magician, and he gets it. He understands magic, spirits, and the axis that goes from here to there, from here to where we come from, and he believes it and acts as if what he knows is true.

    And if I don’t, god save me from my very own wrath. And contempt.

    Death sucks for people left behind, if they don’t get it.

    For the rest of us, it’s a celebration. Dude’s getting a break, ffs. Halleluiah!

    Oh, sure, life’s harder for the rest of us, sucks to be sad missing them and shit, but damn, that one’s got a chance at leveling up, moving on, leaving behind the bullshit of each sphere, and becoming a power, if that’s their Will. Or they come back and do something different… if they want.

    Or they go to some valhalla or some heaven or some hell for a while. Whatever they’re into, that’s awesome.

    Or they don’t. Whatever, they had their time… it’s cool.

    Because…

    Existence is pure joy.

    There’s a thing in the spiritual paths we tread that is expressed in that phrase that people choke on. It’s not a fun thing to face or deal with, that even the worst suffering on Earth is actually secretly wonderful in some way. The ultimate blaming of the victim, the inevitable shrieks that such a thing, if true, would somehow justify the worst atrocities committed.

    Hogwash.

    To say that suffering is pure joy is simply to point out that even the worst experience of existence is better than not existing at all. It doesn’t excuse anyone from anything, it doesn’t make anything better, really.

    But frankly, it doesn’t have to “make anything better.” If you read “existence is pure joy” and can’t comprehend it, you have never understood nonexistence. If not existing were preferable to the suffering the most miserable of us go through, brothers and sisters, we wouldn’t be here.

    We aren’t stupid.

    Ok, we aren’t that stupid.

    I’m certainly not, anyway.

    Harper and I were talking the other day about illuminated enlightened understanding of the world, and how it’s basically a matter of understanding existence from an eternal perspective.

    People caught in the body-mind-current-experience-of-the-moment can’t even appreciate what they’re going through, because they’re all afraid. People who get it from an eternal perspective aren’t afraid, they’re thirsty for experience, because they see that if nothing else, this is the one chance they get to taste the universe the way it is right now from their perspective.

    Live like you’re dead already, and you got a chance to be alive again.

    That’s basically what we’re doing, imho.

    And if I’m wrong, who gives a shit? My way is a lot more fun.

    And besides…

    You’re already dead.

  • Money Beg Options

    So I’m going to put together a conference next year in June or July with a few of my friends (and an arch-enemy), here in Minneapolis, MN. We’ll talk about Hermetic Miracles, the Goetic Revival, Esoteric archives and the lessons they teach, maybe some Greek Magical Papyri-derived rites, strategic applications of sorceric intents, and various conjuration techniques and experiences, and maybe even how much more awesome we are than McWiccans and online OTO CMs and stuff.

    You know… the usual… Regardless, you know my friends are cool. It will rock.

    But I need money to fly someone over from the UK, and someone and his wife from Florida, and someone from Jersey, and like, I don’t know, deposits and shit. So about $5,000 would be awesome.

    Getting that kind of money will be relatively easy using certain resources, but I need a good framework to wrap it around. Like kickstarter or indie gogo or … Just having people send me money on FaceBook or some shit.

    Anyway, any advice from anyone on putting together a low-maintenance, donation-based cash-condensation machine that just puts it all in a readily accessible account with not-too-many-fees?

  • “The Terrified Digestive Tract…

    … with a strong urge to fuck.”

    I was thinking about the human condition and the economy of consciousness* the other day, and the method and process of the Great Work in general. As I considered that ancient cosmic question, “what’s it all about, man” it occurred to me that the motivations of your average human can be understood completely when you recognize that humans are an extremely successful ambulatory digestive tract that spends most of its time terrified, and the rest of the time trying to get laid.

    Take Maslow’s hierarchy of needs, for example. The bottom three layers are all about eating, living and fucking. If you don’t eat, you’ll die! If you’re not safe, you could get hurt, or die! If you’re not fucking, you won’t pass on your genetic code when you die!

    Arguably the fourth layer, esteem, can also be understood as an expression of the terror of existence. We are social because packs of monkeys are more successful than lone monkeys. We’re afraid to die, so we built society as a tool to subjugate wild nature and to protect us from other less-successful ambulatory digestive tracts.

    The four (and sometimes five) part model of the soul I like to work with from the Qabala identifies the two “souls” closest to matter as the Guf and the Nephesh. The Guf is the actual body, and all its physiological requirements, and the Nephesh is the animal-soul, the autonomous consciousness of the body that keeps us breathing when we aren’t thinking about it, and the part the feels the primal emotions of terror, lust, rage, and loneliness.

    Together they are the terrified digestive tract with a strong urge to fuck.

    Most of the time the deciding factor in where we pay our attention is the command of the wants and needs of the Guf and the Nephesh. These two lower souls are in control of most people’s consciousness most of the time.

    But Hermetics teaches us to do it differently. From Agrippa to Crowley, there’s a process of education and practice that leads to the point where your Neshemah is the source of direction, with the other parts providing appropriate input in the decision-making process.

    The point is the gradual shift in the seat of your perspective. A complete change of view. The end-state magician is made of the same parts as the beginning-state mafician, with the same potntial in each moment of pursuing the things that bring them true happiness.

    The difference is that the end-state magician has gone through a indoctrination process that not only tells them who and what they are in the grand scheme of things, it gives them examples as they go along to prove the value and effectiveness of the system. You learn the things, you conure the things, and you learn from the things. It’s a self-reinforcing system of expanding awareness and ability.

    The end-state magician is a consciousness seated in the eternal part of the self, and focuses the attention of the complete incarnated entity on the things it wants to experience in its particular instance. It knows it’s a part of everything, and is intently focused on doing what it wants to do, the reason it particpiates in everything as an individuated instance in the first place.

    Here in the mundane world it manifests as you being at ease in your situations, aware of what’s happening behind the scenes, why it’s happening, and how you can turn the situation to your own pleasure. You look confident, and seem to live a charmed life. Things just happen to go your way, and you accept that and move forward.

    It doesn’t make everything perfect, and there’s always some new mystery to examine and process, so you don’t really get bored.

    You just get to have fun, no matter what’s going on.

    * For an interesting ride down similar trails, with many of the same roadside attractions, check out Ryan Valentines’ post on the Economy of Desire.

  • The Economy of Consciousness

    A friend and I were talking about magic and doubt the other day, and specifically that one doubt magicians suffer about our magical practices secretly all being make believe, fantasy fiction and wishful thinking. That “What if I’m just making all this shit up?” feeling. The fear of self delusion.
    I would make the argument that this, in fact, is the most important question that a magician can ask themselves, all the time. Self-doubt and observation are key factors in any relative success of a magical practice like this. You wouldn’t want to go off the deep end, would you? You gotta keep a sane perspective on things in your life. I think.

    But it’s secretly even more important than that whole silly “sanity clause” to ask this question. The question itself contains a Hermetic mystery.

    “What if…” 

    What are the implications of the question? If it were true, would that mean you are delusional? Is that the dangerous possibility that makes the question sort of horrifying to us? Maybe it’s the waste of time? I mean, we could be spending years amassing piles of money, or changing the world with social activism and revolution instead of reading fairy tales.

    But tighten it another notch and turn it around a bit. 
    What if I’m just making all this shit up?

    That’s the actual premise of Hermetics, and we today understand that point very well. We really are just making this shit up. All of it, all the time. Our experiences are all interpretations of sense interfaces that are not real time. Our brains seem to process everything that happens each moment and turn all that data into a bubble of interactive awareness. We’re all living a few nanoseconds in the past all the time, and we think it’s now. And the universe and our ongoing experience of the universe, with memory and thought and time and running narrative supports the theory that it is actually real stuff we are experiencing through the senses.

    And we can turn our attention to different input sensors. How cool is that? Think about your toes for a second. You weren’t thinking about them before, but they were still there, and you can now vaguely recall that part of your awareness was secretly monitoring and reporting all kinds of data to you from your toes the whole time, but you weren’t really paying attention to it.

    Heh, “paying” attention. Attention and awareness are the currency we use to create and maintain the alleged material world we experience in our sensory bubbles in our brains. It’s how the invisible part of us makes things happen to, through, and for the visible part of ourselves.

    I mean, here’s a mundane example… You can create a high paying job in the tech industry by paying your attention to the tools, techniques, and skills necessary to do the things that people get paid high amounts for in the tech industry. You create and influence your reality using an economy of consciousness wherein the function of exchange is the payment of attention. That’s how it works.

    And how hard is it to think thoughts? You’re doing it right now. My thoughts are flowing into your mind where you’re processing them as you interact with them. And I made you think about toes earlier. I created that experience for you by writing on the internet, which is even easier than thinking. 

    So… What if we are just making all this shit up? 

    Since we are?

    Given that as a premise, the question changes to something else entirely: WHAT NOW? What are you going to do, what will you pay attention to, and how will you change your life, and everyone else’s? 

    What happens next?
    And that transformation is the Hermetic mystery I was talking about. That flipping of the switch that takes a doubt and turns it into a virgin in the morning. It goes from a thing of fear and concern and turns it into an expression of that god-image-ness that is the mortal and immortal human being.
    Now, I’m not saying it is, but pretend for a moment that this simple switch in thinking from “what if” to “what now” is the mental result of accomplishing the Great Work and is the thing that is different about the human among humans who has created the Philosopher’s Stone. 
    Now spend some time pretending that’s you. What do you do? 
    Pay off your creditors, then amass a fortune? That’s one thing you could do, in the economy of consciousness.

    * The ability to create is not the ability to control. If you don’t believe me, have kids.

  • If you didn’t know, the best thing in recent history

    I interrupt the continuing indoctrination and expansion of my personal hermetic messiah complex on your lives to bring you this, if you didn’t already know. I’m totally sure you knew, but if not, you’re welcome.

    Episode 1, Season 1.

    They better make more of these.