Tag: RufusAstraCheck

Tag: RufusAstraCheck

  • Steampunky Goodness

    An absolutely fabulous presentation of SteamPunking modification skills can be found at this site. A most awesome amplifier to go with a most awesome steel guitar, this guy is damned incredible. The craftsmanship rocks. And his shit’s for sale!

    That’s the Amp he modded out over on the right. He calls it the Advanced Resonant Sound Transducer. It doesn’t get much better than this. there are more images on his website.

    What, you may ask, does this have to do with Magic?

    If you have to ask, you haven’t tried building a Table of Practice, Seven Planetary Sigils, or the Seals of the Spirits. That shit takes crafty skills, and watching artistic guys like this put their shit together teaches many useful talents.

    And Steampunk is the coolest geek chic evar.

    Check out the steel guitar image on the left. Tell me it gets better than this. And he named it “The Artful Dodger!” AND IT’S FOR SALE!! And he’s making a case for it now. Dude! How cool is that? I want it. I don’t know how to play it, and I don’t care, I want it anyway. It’s beautiful. But I’ll let someone buy it who can do it justice by actually knowing how to play.

    Thanks to Susanne Iles for tweeting the link to this blog. It’s in my favorites now. The guy does custom work for people too, in case you have a project you’d like to have done that you can’t do yourself.

    One day I’ll have the complete SteamPunk Hermetic Altar. The wand will have a couple of big brass steam chambers to hold crystals or herbs, and I’ll call them its Big Brass Balls. The Pantacle will have brass gears set into it, the dagger hilt will too. don’t know how I’ll do the chalice. Someone will inspire me, I’m sure. I know the Planetary Archangels dig steampunk the most; they’ll love their seals all tricked out.

  • A looooooong week… and some thoughts

    It’s been an long week here. Lots of mundane work going on, and some magical type research that’s looking promising. I’ve also had two requests for my services that came in on the same day from different continents. One I passed on to others with more experience, the other is something I’ll be taking care of on principle.

    Some quick thoughts on things in general:

    On Power and Duty*

    POS wrote an interesting blog post on Power, and it resonated well with the kinds of things I’ve been dealing with in life lately. With power comes the responsibility to use it. If you don’t actively seek ways to use the stuff we learn and earn in our Work, the universe is happy to fill in the void left by our neglect. I’ve commented about this before, but it bears repeating.

    On Research

    Read the grimoires through a few times. I’m finding that I miss a lot on the first couple of read-throughs, even when I think I’m absorbing everything. Many of the gaps in my understanding have been filled by going back over sections while looking for something else. Most of the questions I have about grimoire magic are really addressed in the source grimoire. They aren’t as gappy, disjointed, or missing vital bits of information as I might think.

    On Magic for Money

    The more I look at other people’s reasons for doing money magic, the more I learn about my own efforts in that regard. Most money magic is done to achieve something other than obtaining money. People want money to get out of their country, or to get love, or to be free of debt, or to get a new car, or whatever. In every case, the thing actually desired isn’t money, the money is simply the means they see for acquiring what they want. We look at stuff and the currency cost associated with it because that’s how you get things in mundane reality. You want something, you buy it. But magic doesn’t work that way.

    Instead of aiming for the means to get something using mundane means, the better approach is to aim for what you really want. There are spirits who get people out of their country, spirits that bring love, spirits that free people from obligations, spirits that provide transportation. The way the spirits bring things into manifestation is not by giving you the money to buy it. For example, you may want a new car, do a rite for a new car, and end up having a neighbor move to Ireland and have to get rid of his car. (See Gordon’s Black Swan post for more info on how magic works, excellent stuff.) Go for what you really want, not what you think the means to get it might be.

    On Getting What You Want

    Patience, man, patience. I’m beginning to see that patience is possibly the best magical virtue you can cultivate. Everything that was stressing me out a month ago (and I did do magic about it) is now working itself out. Everything I wanted to have a month ago I’m getting now. Magic works, but it takes a while to manifest. I know, that’s not news, but the application of that truth is pretty useful.

    People talk about assuming the magic has already worked as if that sense of confidence is somehow a factor in getting it to work. I’m finding that it doesn’t matter whether you think the magic has worked or not, it usually does work. Sitting at rest in the comfort of knowing that your desired outcome is on the way is a lot more comfortable than stressing out over stuff, but I’m pretty sure that’s the only benefit.

    I talk a lot about remembering that in eternity, everything we’re going through has already happened, and trying to achieve and maintain a certain degree of detachment from existence that leads to embracing the Now and living in the moment, but it doesn’t have to be eternity that we have to wait. Try to grab that assurance that things will work themselves out een before we die, even before next year, even before three months from now, and you’re free to enjoy the moments between now and when you get what you want. At least, as much as possible. It’s a lot easier to deal with the stress of temporarily being out of my permanent home than  it would be to deal with being a prisoner of war held by enemy combatants with a penchant for beheading captives and posting the videos online, for example.

    On Money for Magic

    I’m still open to getting paid to do magic for people, but I find I’m passing up opportunities to charge large sums for things I was actively looking for a month ago on principles. Principles! It seems I have them. Ethical considerations too.

    It hasn’t escaped my notice that a certain lack of desperation has left me more ethical and scrupulous. I can afford to be ethical now; when I was looking into ways to charge large sums for magic of dubious integrity, I was broke and getting broker. Jason’s “emergency magic is always bad magic” rule seems to apply to more than just emergency rituals for cash.

    * I have powerful duty. Yeah, I said it. 😀

  • Mental Games

    I like to play with my consciousness. One of my favorite mind games is to move my point of awareness around my body. Most of the time I think of myself as sitting behind my eyes. That’s the place in my body where “I” am. But I can move that around, after some practice, and it’s fun to experience existence from my big toe, or hair follicles, or from my fingertips as I type. Our whole body is aware, but we tend to think of ourselves as “being” in the head. We’re in the whole body though, and it’s just a point of awareness that moves around.

    This mind game has some useful practical applications. I commented on Jow’s post (and Deb’s) about how I move my awareness to the center of my migraine pain for a couple of seconds, and the pain just… goes away. It feels like I have to walk through waves of nausea to get there, but the end result is worth it.

    In the comments on Jason’s Why People Fail at Financial Magic, we got to talking about transcending the limits of practical magic. I agree with Jason that the type of stuff we were discussing is beyond the scope of “practical” magic, mainly because it’s totally impractical for most of us to devote the time and effort it would take to attain that level of Mastery.

    Don’t get me wrong, I plan on getting there some day, sooner rather than later, and I plan to do it using Hermetic Conjure Magic. I expect the spirits to continue to teach me and transform the harmony of my sphere to the point where I can do the kinds of things Jesus and Rabbi Shimon did.*

    One of the things Jason mentioned was:

    It is really all based on consciousness itself being a basic building block of reality. When you get a glimpse “Beyond the Abyss” or at Rigpa, or a similar state of realization; the two points that I mentioned actually become seen as inseparable.

    I think I get it. Reality and consciousness are inseparable at some levels of existence. I’ve caught that glimpse a time or two, from combined Solar-Saturn rites and while reading books like Heartdrops of Dharmakaya. It’s a sense of awareness that has some kind of connection to the mental game of moving your awareness around your body and experiencing existence from abnormal points of view. In those moments, I want to believe I could have manifested 55 pounds of gold by being aware of it in the right way. I don’t know if it’s true or not, but I like to think so.

    However, I suspect the level of awareness required to do this kind of thing takes place at levels of consciousness that are too deep, or too high to be able to think in terms of 55 pounds of gold manifesting on your desk at your cube. Just moving my awareness to my toes takes effort, concentration, and a certain level of no-mindedness to overcome the habitual placement of “me” behind my eyes. I can’t maintain that awareness of the inseparability of matter and consciousness that I attain in rites and from magic books for longer than a few minutes during the reading or rite, and maybe a little while afterward. As soon as I start thinking about being aware of being in that state of mind, it’s gone.

    As Jason says:

    Unfortunately to really do the kinds of things that we are talking about, bending and breaking physical laws, you need more than a glimpse into this state of awareness, you need to integrate it into your living levels. This is what separates the true masters from the rest of us.

    Integrating it into my living levels may take some time. I sat here for about twenty minutes today trying to maintain the image of a pound of gold (that’s a brick about 4cm wide x 4cm long x 1.5cm high, according to the web) while getting to that level of awareness at the same time, and I actually started sweating. And I started to get this weird warm feeling of rushing void in my chest while I was doing it, and that felt so cool and interesting that it distracted me from the goal completely.

    And see, that’s the thing. The “place” where thoughts about the stuff around us and the “place” where we are aware of the wholeness of all things and the physical truth of the Hermetic axiom “As above, so below” are so far apart and cluttered in between with garbage that synchronizing the two, being whole is difficult.

    But so is moving my awareness around my body and experiencing life from the perspective of the tip of my dick. I managed that one after a couple hours of practice. How hard could it be?

    * Did you ever notice that all the miracles ascribed to Jesus happen to be the abilities of the spirits, like turning water into wine? I figure he either conjured the spirits to get them to do the miracles on his behalf, or he learned the manifestation tricks from them. OR it may have been something else entirely. But he was limited to the same means to accomplish things that we are, according to the “fully man” part of the doctrine of the trinity, and he himself said we would do greater things than those that he did. God I hate building theories from theories. Hurts my wee brain.

  • Wrong Gordon, but Still Right? Wow.

    Come to find out, the Gordon who writes Rune Soup is not the same Gordon that I thought it was. He tells me my description of him is still oddly accurate. It’s a weird wide web we write on.

  • Power: the Secret to Wealth Magic?

    Rune Soup,* a chaos magic blog written by a certifiable lunatic with a good heart, has an interesting article on Wealth Magic today. I particularly like that he’s advancing Jason’s theories about wealth magic, which I’ve found helpful myself. 

    Gordon hit on something that resonates with my own pet project regarding wealth magic for the last year. He says:

    Move your focus from ‘money’ to ‘earning power’.

    Like old banana breath in the clip above, I feel like I’ve “reached the top and had to stop, and that’s what’s been bothering me.” I’ve got money magic down. I can conjure five-digit windfalls with the wave of a wand, or at least by lighting a candle and muttering under my breath near my favorite spirit pot.** That’s not bad, really, but I never seem to get enough all at once to make a useful fortune. In the time between windfalls, I rack up enough debt to eat away whatever I conjure for myself.***

    A while ago, Fr. S.L. and I had a series of conversations about the nature of wealth and why money magic isn’t getting me where I want to be. He showed me the true definition of wealth, and that, along with Jason’s  theory (summarized on Gordon’s post) has reshaped the way I think about prosperity magic.

    What do we really want when we ask for wealth or money? I propose that most of us really want power. We want the power to do what we want, whenever we want, without the stress of bills. We want to live off the interest of our total holdings, and live well. We don’t want our actions ruled by the bills.

    The solution we see most obviously in our culture is more money, but maybe we’re aiming at the wrong target. When I read Gordon’s quote above about moving the focus to earning power, it was like hearing a bell chime in the distance. He’s talking about the power to earn more money, but it resonated with me as “doing the magic to acquire power.”

    When I read through the descriptions of the spirits of the Lemegeton’s Goetia, I used to see the spirits that bestow temporal dignities as being for social climbers and politicians. But the more I think about it, while the wealthy do tend to have power, the powerful also tend to have a lot of wealth. The spirits are good at bestowing windfalls, but the size of the windfall I’d need to have the power to be free from the chains of my debts is much larger than I’ve seen the spirits deliver. And while they’re great at getting me more revenue streams and higher incomes, I don’t want to have to be more tied to a computer to maintain what I have. As many people teach, you’ve got to give the spirits a way to manifest the money. The common denominator I’ve seen in my wealth magic manifestation is work; TANSTAAFL.

    As many of you know, I’m a bullshit artiste. One of my core tenets is that bullshit makes the flowers grow, and that’s beautiful. My bullshit isn’t false, it’s just fun. I try to use my gift of BSery to make the world a better place, inspire people to do more with what they have, to get over their hangups and achieve their highest potential. I believe magic is the best way to do that for magicians.****

    Over the years, I’ve often dreamed of using the BS gift God gave me to get rich. I usually dream of being a Megachurch pastor who gets out before everything falls to shit, or by writing something like the Secret that gets wildly popular and makes me rich.  I’ve also considered politics, mostly for the health benefits for life that you get after serving two terms.

    But lately I’ve been thinking that maybe the best way to use this gift is to provide a manifestation path for rites to get dignities, places, and favor of friends and foes, or in other words, to gain temporal power. Being subtle in the art of ass kissery in the workplace has already gotten me onto other projects and is getting the attention of the upper level executives at work. A well-timed rite might just give me the boost I need to land permanently in a position of power there.

    With power comes wealth. The execs make a lot more than the cattle in the cube farms. It comes with more responsibility too, but they get more vacation time to compensate. I figure it’s at least worth a shot.

    I still need to do a lot of Work on my spending habits, of course, and I plan to do so through the spirits of Jupiter. Tzadqiel tried to teach me to budget properly before, but would I listen? Of course not. Once I’ve mastered that, and at the same time earned more power, I figure the wealth will come naturally.

    But I have a sneaking suspicion it’s still going to take a lot of work.

    * I’ve known Gordo for years, intermittently, and he’s a good egg, but he used to be … unstable. But I’ll say this for him, he may be crazy sometimes, but he’s 100% sincere. And his madness could even be the divine kind, the kind that people get afflicted with on purpose for the greater good. Or he’s nuts. Definitely one of the two.

    ** I deposited a five-figure check into my account yesterday, in fact, and it’s pretty much spent before it posts. Spent on refurnishing the house that caught on fire to get me the money I conjured. Sigh.

    *** That’s because I don’t  spend wisely. That’s all about to change because I plan to make money my slave, as Jason teaches in his prosperity intensive.

    **** I am a member of the tautology club because I am a member of the tautology club.

  • Where Stars Grow

    Thus he spake, and once more into the cup in which he had previously mingled the soul of the universe he poured the remains of the elements, and mingled them in much the same manner; they were not, however, pure as before, but diluted to the second and third degree. And having made it he divided the whole mixture into souls equal in number to the stars, and assigned each soul to a star; and having there placed them as in a chariot, he showed them the nature of the universe, and declared to them the laws of destiny…

    Timaeus, by Plato

  • Oh…. never mind

    Having a difficult time communicating finer points of your philosophy this week? I am. It’s frustrating, annoying as shit, as they say. But, being the awesome magician that I am, I figured out that Mercury must have gone retrograde. The issues with Balthazar last week made me wonder, in passing, if Mercury was retrograde, but I never bothered to check. Sure enough, it went retro Sunday.

    My pattern, as I’ve noted before on the blog over the years, is that around two weeks before Mercury goes retro, communications go haywire in my sphere of manifestation. People don’t understand me as well, I don’t understand others as well, and I get into more online debates that turn out to be a big hoo-hurrah over a minor misunderstanding of intent, language, or both.

    While it’s nice to be able to count on some things being consistent in life, I’d like to know why it has to be things like this.

    So, in the interest of avoiding the Theunielim, I’m just gonna give up trying to clarify myself.

    But Mercury Retrogrades aren’t supposed to be that big of a deal, in traditional astrology. It’s a minor negative at best. The modern astrological world has exaggerated the impact of Mercury Retrograde a lot, according to Chris Warnock.

    I am personally of the opinion that the reason Mercury Retrograde’s effects are so predictable in regards to my own life have to do with where Mercury is in my natal chart, and the profession I’m in. Being a writer, even the otherwise insignificant effects of Mercury going retrograde are magnified in my sphere. With Mercury in the 8th House, and in Gemini to boot, I’m pretty much doomed to misunderstandings relative to occult conversations whenever Mercury starts slowing. It’s the period of the slowing that affects me the most, it seems.

    I’m just guessing, I’m no astrological pro. I’d love to hear some feedback from someone smarter than I about whether I’ll be doomed for life or not.

  • Banishing: Whatcha gonna do without an Elburp?

    This past weekend, I got hit with a wave of sadness, a deep and sorrowful sadness that made me want to just sit down and cry. Being the self-aware magician that I am, I quickly realized there was absolutely no reason for feeling that way. I had slept really well the night before, I had been doing chores that make me feel good, like I’m fulfilling my roles and responsibilities as a man, and there hasn’t been anything going on in my life that would leave me depressed.

    Random mood swings are one of the things I’ve learned are usually caused by a spiritual attack. Especially random feelings of anxiety or depression. Most spiritual attacks, in my experience, are caused by wandering nepheshim,* the shades of the dead. These spirits are supposed to fade away around 6 weeks after the body of a person dies. Some of them learn to survive on the extreme emotions of other humans, and they learn to trigger these extreme emotions in their vicitms, floating around causing depression or anxiety.

    Note that I am NOT saying all depression or anxiety is caused by a spirit. Most of us have valid and real reasons to feel depressed and frightened at times in our lives. I’m talking about feelings that come out of nowhere when we should be happy, or were happy just a second ago.

    What happens is a wandering Nephesh does whatever it does to attack. You feel a wave of fear, anxiety, or nostalgia about something that makes no sense in your current context. Your mind will likely go looking for some “subconscious” reason for the feeling and chances are good it will find something plausible; this is a trap. You will justify your feelings of sadness, pin it on some real event that legitimately makes you feel sad, and the false sense of sadness has now been replaced with a real source of pain in your life. By your own brain. And then you’re generating real depression, or fear, or whatever, and the spirit gets to feed.

    Now, people die every day. I figure there are a few hundred fading nephesh per square mile, especially around graveyards, hospitals, and the cities where people die in accidents, gun fights, stabbings, etc. In old neighborhoods there are more of them, and the longer a place has been around, the more nephesh gather that figure out ways to survive.

    So when the wave of random bad feelings hit me, I quickly analyzed whether or not it was legit, and finding no ready reason for the feeling, I started to banish.

    Since I have publicly aired my opinion of the LBRP (pronounced “Elburp”), you can bet I didn’t use that. Instead, I went with something more in keeping with my own context. There are echoes of the Elburp in the rite I did, but only because I’m working from the same traditional sources as the Golden Dawn, but with a different overall intent and cosmology.

    I was in my bedroom in the basement. I’ve found that basements seem to have more nepheshim, must be a chthonic thing. I sat down on my bed, and closed my eyes. I called out to my HGA, and pictured myself within my Altar Glyph, standing in the center, surrounded by the Four Princes of the Angles of the World, and the Seven Intelligences of the Planets. Beneath me were the bound Demonic Kings, hostile in the Elements, and above me was my HGA. Looking up far enough, I caught a glimpse of the Source pouring down like a fountain through the spheres in a long chain tha ended with my own manifestation.

    This reminded me of my “Race and Value,” that is, my divine heritage and my position within the framework of eternity. Reclaiming this relationship is the cornerstone of Neo-Platonic philosophy, according to my understanding of Plotinus’ Enneads.

    Next, I said aloud, in a low voice, “Nephesh, be gone now in the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. [HGA name], remove this offending spirit. Michael, Raphael, Uriel, Gabriel, consecrate this ground for our defense; let no wandering shade or spirit of ill intent pass within this home.”

    I then called on the Archangels of the Seven Planetary Spheres to consecrate the home and keep it cleansed and safe as well. I called them by name alone and kept the charge pretty simple: “By the powers of the Seven Spheres, I consecrate this house for our defense.”

    The air in the room cleared noticeably, and the feelings of sadness dissipated. I noticed a marked improvement of the general tone of our familial interactions from that moment, and I was reminded forcefully that I hadn’t done any cleansing or banishing in the temporary house since moving in. (My altar is in storage, along with my Holy Water and Sage.)

    So if you were wondering what I do to banish or cleanse on the fly, that’s about it. It’s short and sweet, and it works wonders.

    *Quick refresher: humans have four (or five) “souls,” the Guf, which is the Mortal Body, the Nephesh, the Ruach, which is the Immortal Mind, and the Neschemah, which is the Immortal Spark of God (and some say the Chiah, the Life Force, or Breath of God, similar but not equal to Prana). The Nephesh is the soul that handles the amygdala response to events, and runs the autonomous nervous system of the body. It’s the emotional memory soul, it’s your cellular memory that remembers to form scar tissue where you were cut when you were 10 even 26 years later, it’s the survivalist, the main maintainer of our daily existence. This soul is also Mortal, like the Guf-body. It survives by feeding on the processes of your physical body, but when your body dies, it begins to starve to death. It takes 6 weeks to die and return to the ashes of Sheol, give or take, and it’s this part of the soul that sticks around after you’ve died, popping up in the passenger car seat when your loved ones are sitting at red lights thinking about how much they miss you. It feeds on extreme emotions, like grief, panic, rage, or ecstatic bliss. This soul can be kept “alive” by making regular offerings, like libations or burning incense and candles to your ancestors. Most of them just die, but some seem to feed off of geomagnetic forces, or become vampire spirits. They seldom remember much about the lives they lived, but they can generally recall the moments of their lives that were traumatic, or were extremely emotional. That’s why “ghosts” are seen walking the places they’ve died, or where they were murdered or whatever. They’re reliving their emotional memories, and are usually kept alive by some “energy” source they’ve managed to adapt to feed on.

  • Postmodern Magic Blog

    In case you wondered why I rarely post links to Patrick Dunn’s blog posts, since he’s one of my very best and longest-held friends in the world, it’s because since May of 2009, I haven’t received ONE SINGLE update from his blog. Apparently something happened back then to the feed or something, and I just sort of assumed he hadn’t blogged in a while. I hadn’t realized how long of a while it was until Lavanah helpfully posted a link to his blog on hers today.

    So, for anyone ELSE out there who used to enjoy the sporadic posts from the author of Postmodern Magic and another book with a longer title (which is no longer sitting behind my head for quick reference like it was before the fire) but haven’t seen anything from the good professor in a freaking year, please use the following link:

    http://pomomagic.wordpress.com/

  • Cursing the Evil Bastards

    Kenaz has an excellent post called “The Sacred Responsibility of Cursing” on his blog today. You should read it.

    I have often struggled with whether or not to curse people, especially since I’m all Christian and “Turn the other cheek” was a freaking commandment by Jesus. Not to mention the times when I really wanted to curse someone and a vision of Christ appeared to stop me. Well, it happened once, anyway. That kind of put me off cursing for a long time.

    But after a lot of Work with Sammael of Mars, and a lot of contemplation of Giburah, the Wrath of God, and Pachad, the Fear of God, I came to a similar conclusion about the role of cursing as a magician. Gardeners have to prune trees to get them to produce fruit abundantly. You pull weeds that choke out the things you want to grow. The First Commandment given to mankind in the Bible was to Tend the Garden, and sometimes that means chopping off the talking snake’s head before it gets alone time with your wife.

    Personally, my biggest problem with cursing is that once I feel justified, I’d start cursing everyone who pissed me off. I’m not an even-tempered kind of guy, even after doing a lot of Martial Work. I’m better than I was years ago, but I’m not someone I’d trust to keep a hand gun in the glove box. My kids need me out of jail, not locked away because some idiot cut me off in traffic. In the moment of my rage, I would feel perfectly justified calling up every spirit I know and sending them against whoever rubbed me the wrong way.

    What keeps me from that temptation is a phrase I learned from an Israeli lawyer-magician who did a lot of work with the Lwa in his youth. “May the spirits judge between us,” he said, referencing how he cursed people when he felt it was appropriate. It cleared things up for me a lot. By saying that, you’re basically putting your own ass on the line. The ritual I use for cursin, if I ever find it necessary, is:

    • Divination – If it looks bad for me to curse the person, I wait. Chances are good that I’m just angry and it will go away.
    • Preparation – I put my case for cursing together, and weigh out whether I would feel comfortable saying “Here’s why I think they deserve to be cursed, judge between us and may the curse fall on me if I’m out of God’s Will.” If I can’t say that without getting nervous, the ritual is off.
    • Never curse angry. In your anger, do not sin, the Bible says. It’s really good advice, even for pagans. It doesn’t say don’t get angry, it just says not to sin while you’re angry. Cursing, in my opinion, is best done cold, not hot.
    • Oration to Source – Thou hast cleansed me with Hyssop, Oh Lord, thou hast cleansed me and washed me whiter than new-fallen snow. 
    • Conjuration of spirit – Saturn and Mars spirits are my favorites for this kind of thing, they’re all malefic, but Mercury and Venus have been known to be of use.
    • Justification for curse – I make my case before God and the Spirit, go over the details that led to this decision, and specifically call out the things that pushed this matter to the point that required magical retribution.
    • Call for Justice – “May God the Source and [Spirit Name] judge between us.”
    • Protection – “Let no harm befall any member of my family, mentally, physically, or spiritually as a result of this rite.”
    • Closing – “As you came in peace, so go in power, and return to me should I call you by name, blah blah blah, World Without End, Amen.”

    If I can go through with that in good conscience with no fear, it’s a go. If there is some level of Fear, I turn the rite into a Solar ritual for enlightenment and clarification, because I’m never scared to ask the Spirits to judge between me and the other guy and enlighten whoever has their head up their ass. Sometimes it’s both me and the “victim,” and plus lux never hurt anyone.