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For those who don’t know, I am officially a member of the OTO, and have been since January 2013. Some folks seem to be surprised, others not so much.

I thought I’d made it clear for years that I accepted the Book of the Law, I just had disagreements with the lodge structure because of all the stupidity I saw coming out of the various Golden Dawn Orders. I blamed the Kircher Tree.

Then back in August of 2012, I had a profound experience with the deity indwelling the priestess at a Gnostic Mass at William Blake Lodge in Baltimore, MD. (Oh my god, she’s full of stars…)

Almost immediately afterward, I met the lovely Harper Feist, who happened to be a member. Some interesting things developed between the two of us (and continue to do so), and she was able to demonstrate to me that the OTO was not at all like the Golden Dawn orders I’d seen.

Since then, I’ve traveled to lodges in Sacramento, Florida, Baltimore, and Philadelphia, and attended NOTOCON IX. I have met Bishops and Minervals, Hermits, Lovers, and Men of Earth, and some guy with a harmonica who puts up with a lot of shit. I’ve become good friends with Thelemites in the UK, and New Zealand, and I’ve gotten to experience what Jason Miller inferred at last year’s Crucible conference.

Anyway, I was initiated into the OTO last January, and I have recently been accepted into the A:.A:.. Someone expressed some surprise on the Gents for Jupiter group when they found out. A lot of you already knew. As Gordon put it, “There was writing, and there was a wall.” But for those who didn’t know, I figured I should just go ahead and make a general announcement to everyone.

Hey-O!

As you may know, I recently had my second divorce finalized, and I’ve never been happier. I spent years in a really shitty relationship, trying to make it work when there was zero trust, layers of abuse, addiction, and all kinds of mental illness to deal with. I took on a shitload of my ex’s issues, shouldering responsibility for things that I had absolutely no control over, and then dealing with the inevitable despair that came when no matter what I did, nothing improved.

Ugh.

I’m going over it all quickly because I hate that I was like that, but I also understand we all do that. We get attached to people who drag us down, and we try to make the other person happy by changing ourselves. It’s human to take the blame for other people’s damage, especially when you really want the happiness you hope to gain from being with them.

You’ll probably notice that I’m pretty darned happy now. It’s not just that I left a poisonous toxic relationship, or even that I met a responsible, beautiful, loving, sane woman to be with. Those things are both great, don’t get me wrong, but they aren’t why I’m happy.

If you’ve ever been in an abusive relationship, you know that getting away isn’t enough to heal you. You still carry around atachments to the fucktard, and guilt that you somehow failed them, when they were the asshats doing the abusing. It’s sick, but it’s also normal. Don’t feel bad if you’re still stuck in it, it’s a tar baby of the worst kind.

I got out of it though, and I can tell you how:

The MOTHERFUCKING SUN.

Hell yeah, all golden and shining and shit. All happy and dancing with cups and shit. All green hill thrusting up through a golden ring and shit.

Also, and here’s the most important part: it’s hotter than fuck.

Go to the Sun to burn away all that pain, all that shit, all those black sticky feelings, all the guilt, remorse, everything bad that got stuck on top of you. Go to the Sun, and be reforged. Let its heat melt you completely, melting away all the form and shape that you adapted and adopted to fit with the retarded fuckwad you wasted so much time with. Let the Sun be the forge in which you are remade, reborn. Go through that Solar Gate and embrace the heat, the light, the life it brings.

If you have the Modern Angelic Grimoire, do that rite to conjure Michael, and just pour your heart out to him. Michael loves us so much, there’s a mystery behind it that is worth asking him about. It has to do with his name. Michael understands us in ways no one else will, and he’s willing to help.

I have clients that need help with this kind of thing. Lots of clients. So many people who come to me are coming with baggage related to their past relationships that they really need to have consumed in the Universal Recycling Bin. It’s an epidemic.

I’m offering an ongoing Solar-Venus rite on behalf of my clients. This rite will be focused on consuming the pain, attachment, and suffering people carry around with them from past relationships. If you want to be one of the people who participate, I’ll need the following:

• $75 – (Paypal link below)
• An electronic version of your photo – Something recent, or of you as an infant that you don’t mind me printing and using in the rite
• Your birth name

When you buy the rite, I’ll be in touch to get your information via email.

Lo, the time approaches wherein RO shall release upon the ready and waiting world the fullness of the ROpocalypse! Whence shall ye see the fullness of the things he hath planned for thee and thine…

and stuff.

But it’s not ready yet. I have lots left to do.

I have, however, managed to update my site!

It’s still a work in process, but the framework is up and running. I’ve made a few more talismans available, and put together some additional services. There’s a lot more on the way.

It’s still in need of photos and other things… but I just couldn’t wait any more. I had to get it out of 1990. anymore. I have a lot more tweaking to do before it’s where I want it to end up, but at least you can start to see the outlines of what’s going to be rolled out.

Soon.

But that time is not yet. So many friggin’ things left to do!

Getting back to it now, in fact, but I wanted to start driving traffic to the site so I can check my analytics scripts and make sure it’s working right. So go check it out!

Jason’s having a Fall sale on the Strategic Sorcery Course through September 22. Take advantage while you’ve got a chance!

I fully recommend Jason’s course because I can see the effects it has on our shared students. A lot of my students are also his, and I can always tell which ones have also been through his course. They get the practical applications of things a little better, and they’re better prepared to take what I provide and turn it into an effective approach to living.

If you look over at the blog list on the right of my actual blog page, there are several that belong to people who have been through both of our courses. It’s no coincidence that these are also the ones who are providing useful content, interesting explorations of the arts, and finding amazing ways to apply traditional magical techniques in modern ways.

I found this today, and it’s a great analogue of what I think happens when we do the conjurations of the Great Work.

In this example, what we think of as our “selves” are represented by the table under the oscillators. They are the foundation of our experience in this spiritual, mental, and material existence we call life.

Our lives when we get started on the Work look like the oscillaors when they first get going, out of harmony, kind of chaotic, a lot of din.

If the board under them were static, that is, fixed and unmoving, unpliable, they would remain that way. But because they are on a moveable surface, watch what happens:

Similarly, as we perform the Work, I think we are made more pliable, and move with the motion. We harmonize, and slowly one part begins to get together, and then it spreads to the rest of our areas of our life until everything is working together. Of course, there’s always that one pink one over on the right that seems to be completely out of sync for a bit, but eventually even that gets its shit together.

You’ll note there are no hands interfering and manually making the things harmonize. Any kind of interference wouldn’t really help, it would just make it take longer to harmonize. By working on the substrate, making that pliable and able to transfer the oscillating energies, the stuff built on the base just sort of automagically comes into harmony.

“Seek first the Kingdom of God, and all these things are added unto you,” is how Jesus put it. go after God, your source, go after cleansing the stuff that keeps you rigid and inflexible and non-adaptive, get rid of the things that hinder the flow from the Source through the Spheres, into the World, through our Senses, and back up to the Source through us as experience, and everything just sort of comes into balance and harmony.

And then when the motors wind down, you can start again.

If you want.

Back in January, I did a post about my friends who had cool stuff to promote. At the time my fellow Gent for Jupiter and long time friend and counselor Monsignor S.R. sent me a manuscript to pimp for everyone’s benefit, and I friggin’ totally forgot about it until he reminded me today.

Sheesh.

Angels at your Doorstep is a little eBook on the conjuration of elemental angels, and a quick and insightful overview on working with each. It doesn’t cost a lot, it’s straight to the point, simple, and easy. The methodology is incredibly tight and direct, and it would make a good companion piece to the Modern Angelic Grimoire in terms of its direct tone and style and ease of implementation. This is exactly the kind of magic I like. Quick and easy, no heavy lifting to get what you need gathered together to get immediate responses to your conjurations.

I didn’t recognize the sub-angels, so I took some time to conjure them and interview them personally this afternoon. I was very impressed with each. They responded quickly to their names and seals, and filled the conjure space with a sense of their presence. They resonated well with my expeirence in the elemental realms, and seemed extremely competent in introducing people to the material realms. My HGA confirmed their potency and authenticity.

I asked each their function, and they each indicated they ruled the elemental properties of the material realm. I tested them a little further, and even did a little Work with one of them on some issues I’m having in my own sphere at the moment. I’m quite pleased with the experience, and will be making some more permanent seals to Work with them again in the future. I’ve been meaning to get some handy elemental angels in my portflio of useful spirits, and here this was the whole time.

I’m also going to be recommending one of my clients work with these spirits right away. This is just what you need to get some assistance in learning how to bridge the spiritual to material gap.

So a very talented artist, who has done some amazing custom work for my upcoming site redesign, has submitted a T-Shirt design to “Designs by Humans.” They have this policy that you have to receive an undisclosed number of votes to have them even consider printing the shirt. Getting a ton of votes doesn’t even result in a guarantee of getting your design printed.

But it’s the first step.

So I really want this shirt, and I’m not above using my status as Flamen Dialis to get what I want. I think it’s that cool.

So I posted a deal on FaceBook that I’ll make here too:

CLICK THIS LINK AND VOTE for the design, and I will intercede on your behalf with Jupiter tomorrow morning at dawn during the morning rites.

Note that you have to register with the site to vote, it’s not just a click-click-done thing. That’s what earns you the honorable mention. You help my friends, my friends help you. Like the mafia. Or Hermetics. 😀

Anyway, I’m doing the rites tomorrow morning, so hurry up.

[Edit 9/12/13: Wow! He went from 29 to 95 votes in one day! Thanks much! After reading the names of 40 people during the rite this morning, I asked for the spirits to continue to bless anyone who votes for this design. I won’t be reading that many names again any time soon though, so don’t worry about sending me the screenshots of your votes. Just know that you’ll get the blessing if you place the vote. And seriously people, thank you so much! This rocks so hard! WOOOOOOOOOOT!!!]

[Author’s Note: I’m writing my ass off. I’ve got to finish the clean-up of the manuscript I’m going to have published through Nephilim Press so I can move on to the web site redesign and then the ROPOCALYPSE. I’m on the part of the book where I’ve summarized the method of accomplishing the Great Work that I practice, and honestly, I need a break from the manuscript. Writer’s Angst is much worse than Writer’s Block. And a brief interlude is good for me, and this is stuff I felt like putting in the book that maybe shouldn’t be there, maybe it should, I dunno. But here it is.]

The other day I posted this on FB with the caption as a comment:

“Stop doing the things that make this necessary, and they won’t be necessary.”

When I posted that, I was thinking about how Mondays suck, in particular. We go back to work after the weekend’s festivities, and it’s a major pain in the ass. We have to put on our happy faces and pretend like we’re getting along, and for what, really? So we can show fake smiley faces to other people with fake smiley faces, when really, secretly, we all want to set the fucking place on fire and go home.

Jason Miller pointed out that it’s “Not that easy for most people,” and it got me thinking about a lot of things.

Why ain’t it that fuckin’ easy? Why can’t we just quit doing shit that sucks, and do things that make us happy instead? Why are we miserable, when we don’t have to be? What’s so hard about doing what we want to do?

And seriously, Jason’s right. It’s not that easy. We find ourselves stuck in weird shit, and the layers of dependencies get woven more tightly, and we find ourselves tied to situations with nets of obligation and fear. We compromise our happiness for what we think is our well-being. We don’t take risks because it can impact us, or our families negatively.

I’m talking about jobs you can’t leave because of medical insurance, or a family that expects to eat regularly. A relationship with a spouse or partner who makes you miserable, but you won’t leave because you fear being alone, or you’ve got kids who you want to come from a nuclear family, or you made a promise you regret now but feel bound to fulfil anyway.

Believe me, I get it. I know how hard it can be. I spent years in a shit relationship for bullshit reasons I might go into sometime for you, if you want to hear some bullshit. I kept jobs I hated for the insurance coverage it provided my family. I poured myself into creating and maintaining a life I didn’t even enjoy, and I didn’t even end that life on purpose. It just broke down permanently at the end.

So I know all the reasons we don’t do what we want. I understand how we get stuck in the lives where we’re so miserable we need those fuckin’ wires to put smiles on our faces so we can get through a day at work with all the other miserable people. I totally get it.

But it’s bullshit. It’s all bullshit, it’s lies. Fucking damned lies.

You are completely free to start over at any point in your life. Today, right now. You are a powerful giant of an entity who has the potential to do amazing shit. You have power, real power to change your existence. It’s not “easy,” of course, but what is? It comes from sweat and pain, but the sweat dries, the pain passes, and you’re left seasoned and salty… and fucking happy.

Remember happy? Happy.

I mean it, really. I’m not shitting you or being hypothetical or rhetorical. You can be happy.

It’s a pain in the ass though, and the realm of happy lies on the other side of the fence. The barbed wire fence. The electrified barbed wire fence. With razor wire coils at the top. And big black dogs patrolling the grounds looking for escapees.

With big pointy teeth.

Basically, you need to become fully yourself. Fully aware of who you are, and what you are. You need to remember that you were born of immortal stock, a god in the flesh. You need to remember you were given the power to create your reality from the Seven Planetary Intelligences themselves. You need to remember what the Sun is all about, and what “light in extension” is all about. Every man and every woman is a star, ffs. Sole vice-regent and shit. You’ve got to learn how to position yourself to accomplish your desires.

You’ve got to learn to be a god.

That’s where people like Harper and I come in. And Jason Miller, Michael Cecchetelli, the rest of the blogosphere who are too numerous to be named, a lot of my students and clients who I’ve helped… many an holy bard. We get called up to do stuff that reminds other people who they really are and what they can do, and some of them go on to become gods ruling their lives, while others go on to become the next generation of teachers who go on to remind more poeple who they are, and what they’re capable of doing.

And that’s basically what I responded to Jason with, that we need to write more books and teach people how to make it so easy. You go deep into the magic, you get the initiations, you go through the crap storms it stirs up, and you conjure more spirits to deal with it as you go along. You learn who you are, you remember your power, and you structure your life as you see fit. The more you do, the more you can do. Work the Kingdom magics, take authority and put it to work for you. It’s not easy at first, because you don’t know who you are and what you can really do.

I teach a course on this kind of thing. It’s a crash course in my kind of Hermetics. It takes time, but it does wonders in the lives of people who really put it into practice. I also offer personal Hermetic Diagnoses to get a quick overview on your personal spiritual health from my perspective. And I’ve been known to take on clients to set up personal sessions to completely change their lives in 5 weeks. I’ll post more details on that service in a bit, but I don’t want this to be the place where I get into that.

Whatever you do, do it hard core, go deep and get through the shit as quickly as you can so you can move on to making life rock so we can laugh about shit over beers on the beach, or at the conferences when i come to your part of town.

Because that’s awesome.